Firsts

I’ve spent over a year experiencing “firsts”. I’ve finally accepted the fact that the Universe is throwing lessons my way and if I keep closing my eyes and going “la-la-la-la-la”, this train ain’t gonna’ stop. I’m going through a period of growth and change in my life. Again.

Tomorrow I get to experience another “first” – one I’m really not looking forward to. One that terrifies me. I’ve debated blogging about this, though, because this particular experience is nothing new to a lot of people out there. I may come off sounding like a whiny little snit. If I do… :: shrugs :: I can’t help it. Try to see things from my perspective.

Tomorrow I will officially be uninsured. My COBRA insurance expires at midnight tonight. Because of my epilepsy, I can’t get healthcare coverage through any of the insurance providers. My COBRA coverage can’t transfer to an individual policy because they’re based out-of-state (something to do with insurance companies not being able to provide coverage across state lines, even though Blue Cross is Blue Cross in WA and in TX). The only insurance I can get right now is the State High Risk Pool, which is ungodly expensive. My other choice is to go 6 months without any kind of coverage and apply for the Federal High Risk Pool, which is affordable. But asking someone with epilepsy to go 6 months without healthcare coverage is asking a lot. Just like asking someone who has a heart condition, or asthma, or any other condition that required regular visits to a specialist and expensive medication.

I haven’t been without insurance coverage since 1987. Yeah, I know… last year I was saying I hadn’t been without full-time employment since 1987.

I don’t like being afraid, damnit. I feel like my last “safety net” is going away.

Some Ramblings on the Public Reaction to the Tragedy in Colorado

I have not posted about the recent events surrounding the tragedy in Aurora, Colorado. Families are in shock and/or grieving. The media is covering the story, as it is, and unfortunately, people are trying to attach a political agenda to this event. 

Last night, Mr. Magick Man and I went to see the new Batman movie at Studio Movie Grill. They were running a bit behind schedule in clearing the theatre, so there was a line of people waiting to be seated. I could not help but overhear the conversation of the couple sitting next to us… the woman was talking to her husband about the shooting in Colorado, and she was genuinely nervous about something happening while we were watching the movie. She said there are “all sorts of lunatics” out there. I couldn’t help myself… I turned to her and laughed, and said, “Hon, you must know half my family!” Obviously, her husband was trying calm her anxiety by inserting some sense of realism, but he wasn’t doing a good job of it… When she said something about how the guy just started shooting, Mr. Magick Man finally said, “Yeah, but here in Texas, we shoot back.” I don’t know if that made her feel better or made her even more nervous, but she stopped talking about the shooting.

What got me to writing about this today is, people are watching so much of the coverage on this tragedy we have people living in fear. The political agenda people are pushing on this – that it wouldn’t have happened if we had stronger gun control laws or if people weren’t allowed to own guns at all – has the general public living in fear. Why? Because they’re spinning it as though all gun owners are freaking lunatics or criminals.

What happened in Colorado was a terrible, terrible thing. IMHO, James Holmes either snapped and had some kind of psychotic break, or he’s just pure evil. The defense is probably going to play for the psychotic break. Would this have happened if we had stricter gun laws? Yes. He just would have found some other type of weapon. Homemade bombs… purchasing weapons on the black market… where there’s a will, there’s a way.

Should we live in fear because there might be a psychotic lurking around the corner? HELL NO. Life is too short for that kind of attitude. Better to live life as you normally would and be capable of defending yourself and your family if necessary.