The holidays are on us. Whether you celebrate or not, ’tis the season and it’s all around you. Every year I have the house decorated by now. I’ve always been of those who gets into the holiday spirit. The music brings back childhood memories of Frosty the Snowman and Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer, and other Christmas specials. I always loved to decorate the tree then lay underneath and look up at the lights.
This year, I’m just not feeling it. I’ve tried everything I can think of, but it’s just not there. I have no desire to decorate my home. I’ve tried listening to holiday music but, really … just, no… I can’t even get into the parodies. I don’t feel like Scrooge, I just feel like it’s another day.
Yesterday, I finally had one moment where I thought I might have a breakthrough on this holiday “funk”. I was listening to Trans-Siberian Orchestra’s “Queen of the Winter Night”. Many years ago I used to be able to hit those high notes without batting an eye; however, over the years I’ve transitioned to more of a second soprano. Yesterday, I surprised myself. I hit every note. That one song put me in such a festive mood I started singing every Christmas song that hit my playlist after that. Alas, my festivities ended as I pulled into Mr. Magick Man’s shop to help them organize everything they brought back from renfaire. By the end of my day I was no longer into baking cookies, listening to holiday music, and I certainly didn’t want to decorate my home.
The only thing I can attribute this to is Post-Project Let Down. I’ve never experienced this after renfaire before, but this was the first time I did a product launch with festival season. I didn’t think about that until after festival was over. So how does that work? The hectic festival season stops but the spinning of the brain doesn’t, so you just spin on yourself. See my post on ADHD and Post-Project Let Down.
I leave this Friday to go see family for the holidays. If that doesn’t pull me out of this cycle, nothing will.